Moroccan apostate of the second generation (March 30, 2013)
Being the second generation of Moroccan descent in Belgium, I grew up with the practice
of Islam. During my early childhood, courses of islamic religion did not exist at
school. Muslims had no radical discourse. The most amazing thing was the spirit of
openness between the different people. Muslim girls and boys were dressed in a similar
way as the other children (there were no headscarves).
I was attending classes about
Islam from the age of 12. The teacher of Islam seemed to be very strict. He would
not tolerate a boy sitting next to a girl in class or a boy talking to a girl (for
the boys and the girls themselves there was no problem). It was very important to
learn Arabic. The worst is that we spent a lot of time to memorize verses from the
Quran of which we did not understand the meaning.
I remember one day, a classmate had called into question the method of religious
teaching methods. The teacher got angry and looked at her in such a hateful way that
I still remember it until today. Later, I learned that our religion teacher had contacted
the parents of the student. After that, she had completely changed. She did not even
react anymore to the systematic abuse of the teacher. She was also the first to don
the veil. She was submitted.
My brothers and sisters, like myself, were complaining
regularly. Fortunately, my parents gave in and we were enrolled in the ethics course.
It was truly a great and happy change.
The presence of Islam in our area, with my
mates of the second generation, became more obvious and the discourse became very
intolerant. Radical speeches, hateful towards non practicing Muslims, with recommendations
to become a "good" Muslim more and more influence.
The introduction of courses of
Islam in schools have resulted in an increasing number of girls wearing headscarves.
It happened to me several times to be witnessing public insults of girls who do not
wear the veil. My sisters were also taken aside by the "good" Muslims. At school,
there was pressure on young people to fast during Ramadan. Ramadan was always the
time when hate speech prevailed.
The increasing presence of Islamic militants in parts
of Brussels has completely changed my perspective because, unfortunately, their remarks
were accurate. The incitement to hatred against non-Muslims and various punishments
reserved for women and children are of a completely different era. By the age of
18, I had been approached several times by what I call "radical" people who preached
fighting in the name of Allah in all forms. They also call for a return to what they
say is the true Islam (strict application of the Qoran and the Sharia). These Islamists
are recruiting youth to fight in Muslim countries.
It was also the time of the tragic
events of September 11 that the designs of Islam have definitely pushed me away from
the Muslim religion. Initially, I thought these radicals were just crazy, without
real intent to harm and what they said was not Islam. While growing up as a Muslim,
it always seemed to me that Islam was a good religion. However after realizing that
you should never doubt the words of this religion for fear of being punished severely
(even death) and that anyone who leaves the Muslim religion should be killed (certainly
if he or she does so publicly) and after seeing so many other issues that are at
variance with the human, I decided to renounce Islam forever and become an apostate.
the day I left Islam, I live in peace. My view is that Islam is not a religion of
openness. History has shown the failure of the "Islamic" model. Muslim countries
will certainly be happier with an environment in which religion does not take a prominent
place. It is time that women and men in the Muslim world have the opportunity to
leave the religion.